Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Our Awesome Vacation

For those of you who don't know, we just went to California for 9 days and it was awesome! Well, mostly. We drove, and on the way down it was super hot outside, so naturally it was a perfect time for the A/C in the van to stop working. So we drove through the deserts of California with all the windows down and naked babies in the back! When we finally got there we stayed in an awesome Condo with Tim's parents (they own a time share) and Tim and I got to go to Universal together the very next day while Tim's parents watched the kids! Woo Hoo! Besides a slight mix-up with our tickets, we had a blast. Unfortunately we forgot the camera that day so no pics of that. The next day, we went to Sea World in San Diego with everybody. It was so fun! The babies were pretty good, they even sat through most of the shows! I loved it. The weather was awesome, I got to see Shamu, and Tim's parents helped take care of the kids so I got a break! The next day was Disneyland, which was fun except that first thing in the morning I realized Chris had thrush so we drove all over Anaheim looking for medicine. But we had a great time after we got that taken care of. We went to the Zoo the next day in San Diego. It was cool, not many of the animals were out, and Christopher had a puking fiasco all over the stroller, but the Zoo is huge and worth a look if you've never seen it before. And the last two days were at Disneyland. We had a blast, but on the very last day Dustin had a fever and we spent the whole morning in urgent care to find out he had an ear infection. But we got medicine and he was a trooper the whole day. Despite getting sick, the kids were so good the whole time. They were even really good in the car, Dustin actually slept which is atypical, neither of them screamed or got scared on any of the rides, Tim's parents were a huge help, and the weather was sunny even though the forecast called for rain! All in all it was a blast and a great break from the everyday.

This is me and Dustin at the Star Fish exhibit. He loved picking them up and tossing them back in. He thought it was a riot!
Chris and I at Dolphin Cove. A few dolphins swam by really close, but not close enough to touch, darn it!
I had to throw in a picture of the infamous Shamu!
Dustin at the petting zoo at the San Diego Zoo. He wasn't really into the animals. He mostly just stared!
All of us after riding Winnie the Pooh, which I think was the kids' favorite ride!
Of course we had to go on Dumbo!

This was how we had the kids loaded up the whole time. Tons of stuff in the stroller with me pushing and Tim looking at the map!

The boys and I clownin around in Toon Town.

Dustin surfin with Tims Dad at California Adventure.
The boys on Tom Sawyer Island at the end of the treasure trail.
Grandma and Grandpa bought the boys Mickey Ears with their names on the back. So Cute!
Me and Mrs. Incredible, how fitting!

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

The Drama Continues...

So as an update from my second to last post, I would like you all to know that my Mom was engaged to my Dad for a week, and they were looking at property together to build a house, she told me how great she felt about the decision she made, yada yada yada, she was so happy to have the family together, yada yada yada, and then the very next weekend, she stood my Dad up for dinner and went out with the other guy that had proposed to her and spent the night at his house. She's stayed there ever since. Of course my Dad was completely heartbroken, and is sad and angry and confused. I've kinda been his support since all this happened, so he's been talking to me alot and over at my house crying all the time. Which is really hard for me because I just went through this same thing with my Mom last year. Except my Mom was the one who was heartbroken and rejected. She didn't even tell anyone that she had completely ditched my Dad and pretended like everything was totally normal the next day. I've blown up on her a couple of times, but she truly doesn't care how she is making anyone feel by her actions. Her famous line is that "it's her life, and she has to do whatever makes her happy and everyone else is going to have to deal with it." I just can't believe she's living with a guy she hardly knows, after she was just living with my Dad a few days ago. And she totally broke all of our hearts. She has been such a liar. Everything that she ever said mattered to her has turned out not to matter to her at all. It only matters when it's convenient to her. Things like her family, the church, standards, all have done a complete 180. She hasn't talked to any of the kids since she moved back in with the other guy. She even attacked me after I snatched her cell phone and threatened to call her boyfriend (stupid of me, I know, it was an empty threat, but she still went crazy and gave me a bruise across my arm!) And my biggest fear is that I am in some ways, just like my Mom. I see similarities between her selfishness and mine. I would like to think that I would never do what my Mom has done, but she has made me question myself to the point of wondering if I even deserve to be in a marriage and a family. I feel totally inadequate. My Mom was not very loving till the divorce and then she changed into this really great person. That gave me so much hope because I thought I had a chance to recover from the damage my Mom had done earlier and that meant I also had the ability to be a loving person. But my Mom never really did change. She needed my Dad because she didn't want to be alone, so she pretended to change, and she pretended to be loving to me because she needed me to support her after the divorce. But now that she's found someone else who's convenient for her, she drops all of us like hot cakes because she doesn't need us. I'm not defending my Dad, he was the one who walked out in the first place, even though my Mom begged him not to. But I understand now why my Dad didn't believe that my Mom had changed. He tried to tell me she was fake and I told him she really was trying and that he was awful for not giving her a chance and seeing someone else. Sigh, anyone who has advice for dealing with psycho parents and ways to overcome fear of becoming like them please post a comment. I'm desperate!